Black Wooden Tube

Monday, January 21, 2008

saw this on their website.

was searching for a picture like these as my wall paper.

pretty cool looking actually.

earlier on was the first time i chatted with this friend of mine, on msn.

i cant recall having a chat with her on msn since we first met haha.

wasn't a long one neither was it a short one. fair.

had the chance to know more about her. so yeah, did just that.

i woke up at around 10am today and i didnt realise it.

went downstairs, saw dad and mum, switched on the tv, poured myself some water.

and they were gone. after about half an hour dad was back.

during that time, i was thinking to myself. wow. what a cool day.

thats strange. after looking around the house. i thought about everything again.

then i was like, what time is it? checked the time, 10 45am.

thought to myself, shit. woke up too early. and i am hungry already.

watched spidy man, ate a little, surfed the net for wall papers.

completed my to do list. then i started rotting.

2 plus i fell asleep on the sofa, was so hot la. woke up 2 and a half hours later.

took a shower and dinner. melvyn's gf was helping him sms dad.

i was helping dad to reply him. they were driving.

trying to coordinate where and what time to meet for dinner.

dad had to meet mum up first. sms, sms, sms, sms.

stopped at the junction. and i thought, that car looks familiar, so does the driver.

realised that dad's head was turning as the car made its turn.

hahahaha thats melvyn, haiya. diao la.

heart bled @11:41 PM

suddenly it dawned on me that he isnt living very happily.
like he should be much happier now that he has achieved so much.
so much has changed for the better already.
and for some reason i cant help but feel that something bad is gonna happen.
to be precise, i feel like death is on its way to claim him already.
not so soon, but not that far from now either. like a few years more. a decade?
i dunno, its just a really bad feeling i get at times.
i wonder what can i do. some times i feel like i know the answer already.

band was great. sight read alot of pieces, as usual, first practice after concert.
pieces were okie, quite fun, i really loved them ahahah.
think the hardest one was la forza del destino. got a little stressed at one part.
was trying to figure the notes out and at the same time,
trying my best to keep the rhythm.
when that phrase was over i was like, holy shit, thank God.
and then, another tough part decided to come. kk i admit it.
i hate the song hahaha. no la not hate. just dun really like it.
not because its tough. just that i dont really like that kinda piece.
verdi's piece actually hahaha. the other choice was a fun piece.
and i sturck the jack pot again haha. thought that 2nd clar would be a safe zone.
JACKPOT !!! i got the hardest part for one of the songs, so much for 2nd clar.
why like that de ??? every time sure pick some kinda hard part.
if only i can walk pass the 4D booth, and just like buy some numbers,
and wa la, 1st price. thats cool man.

oh yeah, as i was bathing today. i started day dreaming, in the morning haha.
the topic ? what would i do with 10 million dollars.
like if i won it in a lucky draw you know, or 4D or blah blah.
started thinking of alot of funny things. 1 to 2 million for charity.
1.5 million aside for a ferrari 599 fiorano. its 1.2 mil. 0.3 mil for maintainance.
thats like roughly 3 mil gone already. 1 mil for my aunty that side.
thats 4 mil burnt. 4 mil for a house of my own, i want lotsa ground.
thats 8 mil gone. 2 mil for business.
1 mil for what ever personal investment i wanna do.
the other 1 mil for the 4 brothers. hahaha sounds great eh. hahaha.

heart bled @12:05 AM

Saturday, January 19, 2008

attended sectionals on friday. was a nice experience.
made up my mind that since i am really free,
i would go back when possible to help those year 1s / 2s.
they had questions about the pieces they were playing but i couldn't attend to all.
its a nice feeling actually, to teach what i am sure of and watch them learn.
hmmm, didnt feel weird some how, when i returned.
decided to check out the other sections for some reasons.
been a while since i heard the band. stopped over at the saxophones.
they are a bunch of funny people. think they should be anyway hahaha.
cheeky some of them, naughty.

they did a near full wood winds combine for a couple of pieces.
one was Noah's Ark. and there was that problem for the " parade of the animals "
quite some of them do not know the story, much less imagine it.
thought a while, then i asked, who watched Ice Age 2?
the part where all the animals were moving towards higher ground.
there's the big and small, the tall and short, nimble and clumsy.
bassoon reminded me of this short, wide bony dinosaur with a tail.
everytime it walked its tail would swing left and right.
and it was a slow moving one, everyone was just overtaking it.
everyone's like the B.clar to me. faster and more nimble.

when they started reporting back to the room.
as they started to settle in their respective places, something very common happened.
that is, in most secondary schools, more often then in other types of bands.
primary school, external voluntary bands etc.
a few of them got together, at first it was like 2 or 3?
than a few more came in one by one. just slotted themselves in like that.
i just sat there watching them enjoy. was reminded of sec sch days there and then.
sort of like started to day dream. enthusiasm fuels learning.
and they are talented players. forgot to bring the cam, wanted to capture something.
oh well, next round perhaps.

quite some people have asked me that question or something like that.
i always reply them, nah not now or just a nope.
the next two years might be the deciding factor perhaps.
i am still pretty afraid of the stage actually. i am find with victoria already.
maybe its because we have performed there lotsa times already.
hmmm, another hall would be scary. i remembered sydney.
for a brief moment i just freaked out. i think it was at the opera house.
just trembled hahaha. oh well.
think i need some hard liquer before performance ahhah.
i wont drop from half a glass dont worry hahahahah.

heart bled @8:58 PM

Thursday, January 17, 2008

okie, finally pieced it together. stopped for a damn long time.
thought that a few certain pieces belonged to one area.
it was actually meant for another part of the puzzle,
thats why i couldn't piece the whole thing.
haha figured that out last night, after like dunno how long.

heart bled @3:45 PM

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

okie this is the X5. dad getting the wheels rebalanced.
wasn't done properly the first time. always produced some knocking sound.
balance the rims actually.

this is the balance check machine. spins the wheel.
tells u what weights to add and where. pretty cool actually.

new wider diameter rims on the Z4.
doesn't look fierce enough if u were to ask me.
doesn't look nice cause i got it at the wrong angle.

took these pictures a couple days back uing my hp.
the work shop is actually like behind cineleisure.
just beside killiney. we were like, what are we doing in town?
dad knows the place but we dont. dad changed's melvyn's rims.
got his adjusted at the same time.

hmmm, funny, my time is better spent when i am really busy,
as compared to days when i have nothing to do. like nowadays.
when i am busy, i always have lotsa activities coming in all the time.
when i am free, its dead boring, super slack nothing to do kinda thing.
it like, wake up, and before i know it, another day's gone kinda thing.
really boring, really a waste of time.

i cant sleep. been sleeping like at 4 / 5 am these few days.
the pass 6 days. around there. and i would wake up at 12 ?
not very good at all. gotta try and switch things back. bio clock's a mess.
and i declare myself a psp addict.
started playing need for speed most wanted, like 3 days back.
i am now at the 7th position. still a while to go. think i'll continue tomorrow.

heart bled @12:54 AM

Thursday, January 10, 2008

ok, finally i can post pictures. for some reasons,

i couldn't upload any pictures for the pass few days. and so i didnt blog.

not sure why. no particular reason. i just like this picture.

i like the red. its like looking at blood trapped in bags,

with a light shining from behind them. hahah just like it.

its actually japanese maple leaves. yup think its that. japanese maple.

okie super short post.

heart bled @4:32 PM

Sunday, January 06, 2008

car head lamps? nope. its actually the head lamp of a bike.
the honda CBR 1000. quite cool eh. one of my dream bikes.

alright. settled the psp. took the ceramic white. quite nice too.
baby pink was tempting but nah. really girly hahah.
got myself the 8gb card to go along. waiting for some games.
think i might take some pictures of gabranth soon hahah. yup.
and maybe the psp? though i have no idea why. but yeah.
then post them HEHEHE.

melvyn's asking whether we would like to go photo taking.
himself, marcus and i. no particular subject and no particular place.
pretty fun eh. cause then one would be free to exercise one's creativity.
if i say, subject's a car. then you would only be taking the car.
but if i say, subject would be everything. thats pretty different.

ok, something eerie happened earlier on, in the toilet.
i was taking my bath, like at 240am. thats 30 mins ago.
was enjoying the hot shower. was about to leave.
just that, 5 min more thing, when i heard a sigh.
it sounded pretty much like a woman's sigh. that was it man.
i hate bathing at this hour as it is. pitch black outside and the sigh had to come.
luckily i was soap free already. grab my towel.
opened the door reached for the switches. switched on like 4 lights at one shot haha.
came out of the toilet settle everything outside of the toilet hahah.
its really really freaky. especially the sigh ahhhh. its always a sigh.
dad heard the soft crying. i hear the sigh. like oh my gosh !!!
okie, shall turn in soon. please dont hurt me, pls pls pls.

heart bled @3:02 AM

Thursday, January 03, 2008

whats our purpose in life? i think alot of us often ask ourselves that question.
seriously, i have no idea whats my answer to that question.
or religious explanation to that question, so yeah.
i dunno, i just started to think of it while i was in toilet.
was like, hmm, eh, what am i doing here, what am i here for.
what on earth is man kind here for.
without us, the earth would be a better place to begin with. so random.

i saw a documentry on stars recently.
there's a theory that life owes has its origins in stars.
not the stars, what they call, type 2 super novas or something like that.
its just a bigger than the big bang theory explosion.
nuclear reaction / fusion within these stars creates calcium and all.
and when they go boom, everything goes all over.
to me it was an interesting documentry. watching those pictures, explanations.
and i learnt something new. haha. those "cloud" formations in space.
some nabular thing or some other similiar stuff?
they are such due to the atoms. lighter ones on top, heavier ones at the bottom.
according to gas section in the periodic table.
oh yeah, do forgive me if i am wrong, was a few days back. so yeah.
ok, that was random too.

nearly met with an accident today.
if it happened, including me, there would at least be 4 cars involved.
cause traffice was heavy, and everyone was just speeding.
me and a fellow learner, both in the left most lanes,
were trying to change to the right most lane. 3rd to 1st lane.
didnt see him brake, and i was speeding up to match the car on my right.
so yeah. turned in just like that. my fault. big careless mistake.
forgot to check the front. and i knocked down the pole again HAHA.
poor instructor had to pick it up, this round it wasn't raining so it ain't that bad.
i mastered my parkings today !! with poles of cause.
talking about parking. the X5 has this super cool system la.
it has this cam at the back like those on buses.
so whenever dad engages the reverse mode. the guide lines become active.
which ever way he turns the wheel, the lines react accordingly.
showing him the path he would take, and if he would collide into anything.
its more of a curve actually. the guide lines. different colors and all.
i love the X5, so my kinda vehicle.
save too. since i drive so recklessly. hahah. 3 more weeks !!

hmmm. aunty jenny told me twice already.
that when she took care of me, as a baby, i didn't cry like a baby.
instead, i sort of like wept, quietly. small sobs kinda thing.
like i was thinking of the past. and mourning it.
and aunt peggy would say, its like he remembers his previous life.
like he had a really hard time in his previous life.

some of my friends tried this, what does your birth month say about u,
thingy on facebook. so it popped up in my home page.
and i tried it. found it to be about 85% true. quite interesting.
go try it. and i getting a lavander color psp slim. when is it coming.
i needa game. i wanna game. star craft isn't enough anymore.
in fact, i feel like waking martin up now. ask him for his psp hahah.
i am bored, and i cant sleep.

heart bled @1:47 AM

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

okie, finally got my pictures from dad's lappy. the japan trip.
so some from the earlier part of the trip.
this little girl was playing around the fountain. and i wanted the fountain. so.

Britain? its universal studios Japan

yong tau fu in their mini mart, cool eh. and its hot.

yup, this is their kinda magazine

heart bled @12:36 AM

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Love each other or perish - Auden

its a pretty expensive day today haha. bought two dvds.
Flags of Our Fathers & Letters From Iwo Jima.
ordered a psp slim too. played martin's till i got a little hooked on it.
there's this game called war hammer. pretty draggy game. but i took a liking to it.
than there are others like medal of honor which looks pretty good.
tried this swat game on shawn's psp, didnt like it. so yeah. gonna search for more.

new year resolution. everyone's asking each other whats theirs.
is it that important to have one or to find out what's pals' ?
very weird huh haha. than again, to not have one would be weird to.
it would be like, to start sailing through the year aimlessly.
imagine a ship. after it leaves habour, then the crew starts to wonder.
hey, whats our heading, which port are we calling at next.
are we even gonna call at any port ? hahahaha.
i do have mine, but i would keep it to myself.
and no it doesn't include gunning down a few more babes before enlisting.

you can save my butt's getting pretty itchy.
thinking of getting No. 1,2,4 together with me. discuss something.
propose it to dad. we should start thinking of something now.
at least thats what i feel. it would take time to mature.
therefore, its better to start earlier. now is quite the time for the two of them anyway.

heart bled @11:37 PM

Monday, December 31, 2007

been having migraines since the 24th. 24 was the worst. i think it was then.
last more than 12 hrs, constantly going on and off.
today, it took a switch, its now on the right side.
not as bad as attacks on the left side though. so yeah.
its just a little irritating at times thats all.
like when you are bending down or when you are standing up.
than it comes, and lingers for a short while. thats the irritating part.
other than that, its pretty much nothing for me. i want it to go of cause.

about 31 days from now, it would be my TP prac test.
hmmm, dunch know if i would pass hahaha. i have to pass though.
if not i would have to wait for like a damn long time for the next test date.
which, by then i would be in army. it also menas i wouldn't be able to drive.
drive home after concerts. that would be great. dun have to cab home.
actually, it would be a bit sian. drive for like 1 month only.
and i would be in NS already. before any car arrives, i would be cleaning my rifle.
so i would just be getting it for the sake of getting it.
kinda sucks but oh well. who really cares.

hmm i think its time to just heck care.
i should start to be back at square 1. the dun give a damn attitude.
seriously, its getting no where. it takes two hands to clap.
oh yeah, gonna borrow some silver polish products from dad haha.
see if it works on my clarinet. he uses it for his car rims.
thats some kinda like rust on the lower rings of the barrels. both barrels.
only the barrels. must be the water. didnt dry it totally last time.
would clean up the case as well. get rid of those fur like things.

heart bled @12:00 AM

Saturday, December 29, 2007

alright, the new car is here, the X5. its wow.
and oh. the 545i didnt go in the end. looks like its staying till its time is up.
which is good hahah, beautiful car. okie, it went for a paint job.
and man its brilliant. ah long, dad's friend. did a wonderful job.
its better then when we first got the car. super smooth and all.
they polished it as well, wax and all.
okie, the X5 is huge. really big. its and SAV anyway. so yeah.
shall shoot some pictures of it tomorrow. when dad's not around.

concert's over. made alot of mistakes during concert.
was distracted quite a few times during the pieces.
the only two songs that i wasn't distracted, was saga and samson.
oh well haha is over. waiting for the next one. hope i can play in that one.
shall start practicing when i can. dunno what to blog about.
i dont have any pictures.

oops, an insect just got fried. flew towards the UV bulbs ahahha.

heart bled @10:00 PM

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

okie, got a couple of things for christmas. shall come to that later.
let me see, 24th dec, christmas eve. reached church at 11pm.
waited for some friends, entered the hall, listened to christmas carols at 1130pm
mass started at 12. ended arund 130. left church at around 210 for michelle's house.
just a small party, christmas party, till the next morning.
no drinking / gamibling, like duh. received a few presents.
among them was a bottle of sparkling fruit juice wine or something like that. 0% alc
was from addison. shared it with aunt and uncle earlier on, was really yummy.
left her place at 10. reached home, washe up, slept till around 730pm.
realised i miss lunched and everyone was gone. made my way to aunt's house.
just nice, dad and the rest were heading home while i was heading there haha.
so ya, that's it. pretty "interesting" christmas ahha.
two most interesting presents, this round, a pair of BOSE QC3 head phones.
and that bottle of sparkling juice. really good presents.
just a little wasted for the head phones, cause i dun use head phones.

okie, was thinking to myself on christmas eve, at the bus stop.
was waiting for the bus, heading to church. was thinking.
thats weird, why did i choose to go to church instead.
cause shawn and weirip asked if i wanted to
spend christmas eve with our pri sch classmates.
meet at 4, chit chat, have dinner then probably chiong at Zouk.
i was like, ah sian. chiong. then addison asked me.
and i was like, oh sure why not haha. when i was thinking of that.
i was like hmmmm. mmmmmm. hmmmmmmm. weird but interesting.
made a mental note to blog it, and then the bus came.

i got to give it to the priest. he sang the entire gospel reading out.
we were like, shit, this is gonna be long. haha. and when it finally ended.
he was like "please be seated" and he sort of like, inhaled deeply then exhaled.
with lotsa effort. as though he just ran 2.4 under 8 mins that kinda extreme.
got to give it to him though, really isn't easy. that kinda chanting singing thingy.
and it isn't a short reading.

aunty lily, her daughter Ann, shawn and ah ma were playing mah jong.
one of them asked whether i know how to play, i said yes a little.
then one of them asked if i wanted to play in the 2nd round.
i repiled, i dont gamble. then i thought to myself. politcally not a very good reply.
hahahahaha. a while later, i asked aunty if i could take a look at
pictures of when me and shawn were young.
its quite nice actually. i cant explain the feeling.
to just look at those pictures, most of it i cant recall.
but yeah, just to look at it. know that i was so loved by aunt. and still is.
oh its just such a warm nice feeling. okie, to be honest, i felt emotional.

hahaha. dad complained to aunt just now, when they were at her place.
that among all his kids, i am the most rebelious, oops.
and that i am like, not part of the family, always keeping a distant from the family.
which i have to say, yeah. i feel that it doesn't really serve a purpose to be so close.
there's no point. i prefer to be on my own. like i told aunt.
i dun my mind helping dad / bros out in a business. work together and all.
but the moment i have enough to buy a house and maintain it.
my daily expenses and all, out i am going. gonna stay on my own, alone.
i dun like to be pinned i guess. i like freedom, lots of it.
maybe, the desire to be independent in as many ways possible,
has led me to be seen, or has changed me, to be rebelious.
well, i seriously have not thought much about that.

heart bled @10:58 PM

Monday, December 24, 2007

oh well, christmas is approaching. watched the show silent night.
about germans and americans living in this ladies house together during the war.
the german youth troop sang silent night at one part.
found it nice, so here it is.
to all, have a merry christmas.

have not gotten my darn driving lessons.
by wed, i got to get it
maybe i should just make my way to the driving center from there actually.
that would mean lesser practice time at home though.
expecting christmas eve to be one boring one.
hell. shall consider the options tomorrow.
dun even know if the center or cc's open tomorrow.

heart bled @1:34 AM

Friday, December 21, 2007

so, i'll be fishing out at sea tonight. on a boat, under the stars.
i'll have lotsa quiet time to myself.
who knows, i would be able to sort some things out. like my life.
use the time, think of what i really want.
even when you aren't physically doing something,
it doesn't mean you are not doing anything.

applied for two jobs while out with my friends yesterday.
one at B&J, again, miss the interview due to work the last round.
the other is at some other shop selling some stuff.
both was at the cathay. if i do manage to land myself a job there,
it would be pretty easy to get to work. 167. direct bus.

hmmm, some people are really lucky. to be able to love.
and know that they really are loving that person. purely.
and not wonder to themselves at times whether they really love the other.
if its me, i would have to crack my head. simply because i have lost it.
the meter's broken. strangely, heike's 99% gone but denise is still somewhere there.
had a dream some time back. about 3 weeks ago. that we were back together.
then snap !! back to reality. woke up, saw the room and was like.
damn, i wanna get back to sleep. of cause, it doesn't work that way haha.

hmmm, i dun shit blood anymore. after a night of heavy drinking.
maybe that night was really heavy drinking thats why. but yeah.
2 or 3 sessions of heavy drinking have passed since then.
i got a friend that clubs so often, and drinks so much.
that whenever she pukes after each session, blood comes out too.
yucky? no, not really. its nothing disgusting, save the smell.
its just scary. cause thats visual impact. that the body's screwed.

break for too long ahhah. had some trouble doing my chin ups last night.
managed to pull about 30 than i died .
thats like not 30 at one shot, thats like 6 then 6 then 6 and ya.
sets of 6 with about one or two mins break in between.
and 30 push ups to conclude. MITCHELL ! U ARE SCREWED U SLACKER !
hahahahahah

okie, gonna get my lessons this monday.
driving center was closed yesterday, public holiday, slipped my mind.
so yeah book the soonest possible date, then, i am gonna try and rush haha.
okie, gonna play another round of star craft with the com till like 4.
than exercise a bit more. complete today's set. than rest.

heart bled @3:10 PM

Thursday, December 20, 2007

this is sickening. got two ulcers.
one of the left side of my tongue, the other,
the right, under side of my tongue. where the tongue meets the lower palate.
makes practicing pretty uncomfortable.
currently gaming, shall return another time.

heart bled @1:38 AM

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

concert yesterday was pretty scary for me at least.
me and sam were like, out of tune out of tune, must get the B.
that was during rehearsals. performance time, that part was alot better.
overall though, i felt i wasn't doing as well as during rehearsals.
screwed quite some of the running notes. but oh well, thats history.
why do we study history.
so that we would be able to learn from past mistakes and not commit them again.
from The Rape of Nanking ( movie version ),
"Those who do not learn from the past, are condemned to repeat it."

hmmm, made a really silly mistake last night. not a mistake actually.
was forgetful but yeah, not pardonable. thats an excuse.
i left my entire bag pack in my friend's car. clarinet and everything.
meaning, i have to meet him to get it back later. then head down to band practice.
really stupid right, how could i have made such a mistake.
okie, there would be like no eating out for the family for the next few days i guess.
we have got zero cars left, save melvyn's which obviously cant contain all 7 of us.
yeah, all sold haha. sold, gone, there goes the babies.
there goes the 545i !!! so sad la, that was a really nice car.
all the extra things done to it. the two nicest unique things.
special programming and special additions done to the brake lights by dad request. everything gone gone gone. dad's cars are all black.
as ah long said, if its not black tis not a car to edward.
a joke of cause. haha. oh well. listening to music.
its been weeks sinced i exercised. time to do some chin up.

heart bled @12:56 PM

Monday, December 17, 2007

heart bled @12:31 AM

Thursday, December 13, 2007

shit she's pretty.

from the roof square of the hotel.

some temple.

at one of the stops, moving away from fuji.

heart bled @9:48 PM

Thursday, December 06, 2007

all that running around for the past few days have
left me quite oblivious to changes at home.
No. 5 and factory producer female got themselves new sony vaio lappys.
i didnt realise it until last night when No.5 was using hers in her room.
i was like oh new lappy ah?
and than she replied that they got it a few days back already.
amongst other things, i also failed to realised that everyone had packed save me.
including bro and dad, their cams. rush packed last night.
realised i had not enough of some things.
went shopping at john little north point like just only.
hmmm, wonder how would the trip go.

hmmm, i wish the trip wasn't like at this time of the year.
but then again, its roughly around this time that everyone's free.
why do i wish it that way? hmm, cause i would have very little time for prac.
thats why i have been chionging the past few days too.
kinda worried actually. should be my last concert before NS.
and during that time, i would most likely lose touch also. hmmm.
fret not though mitchell, there's also a solution to every problem.
okie, listening to some music now.
first time i heard 1812 including a choir and real artillery fire.
now its swan lake. okie, shall read my book already.

heart bled @1:45 PM

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

lao shi saw the bell today. heehee.
he can make replicas of it using different types of wood.
i didn't feel any heart ache though, that it can be made at a much lower price.
i was more like ooooo, thats interesting. nicer wood at lower prices.
hahaha, make a barrel ? fatboy series !! hahahah.
seriously, accent charges 480 for a fat boy barrel. after calculation.
it would cost like around 350 to 400 at most, to bring it in on my own.
not that i would get one la. and i realised something.
quite some of my friends have got either a music theory cert or
some kinda graded exam cert in the instrument they play.
even if its grade 5, its still a cert. two pal's have got their grade 5 certs.
one has gotten his diploma for the instrument he plays.
another pal's gonna take his grade 6.
one is thinking of a dip if i am not wrong. another two, that makes three actually.
some have taken their piano exams too. and some of them are toying with the idea.
its just wow, so many of them. amazing.
but it doesn't get us anywhere if music's not our intended career.

and oh i realised another thing. visited 3 blogs earlier on. just 3 blogs.
if you were to ask me to describe their blog entries in color.
hell, its dark. black or dark brown. a very dull moody color.
seems like they were in a state of depression when they typed their entries.
no it doesn't affect me, just makes me curious.
i'll be like ooooo, why is it like this. think a little bit.
then move on to the next blog. usually i read at most 3 entries per visit.
cause i dunch really read blogs. oh well.

its been 10 days sinced the proclaimed return date for most of the body.
and also that there would be fresh blood.
nothing much has changed since before then. 23 more days.
what have we not done. quite somethings actually.
hmm i wouldn't care much actually. about the outcome.
if it wasn't for a friend that would have to end up doing everything,
i would just take a back seat, watch the opera. three friends actually.
hmmm. i still remember the msg, still have it. was like what the hell.
its bad enough to not try and do somehting about an
oncoming problem which you have fore seen.
its worst though, to brush it off as the the job of another. disgusting really.

thursday, flying off on thursday.
reaching the airport by 10 to check in and stuff.
its been a while since i went on a tour, the last was new zealand, for me.
shaved botak with my cousin and younger bro then, for the trip.
just for the fun of it. froze our heads off on the snow mountains.
saw the result of an avanche that partially blocked a mountain route.
and it was just at the entrance of a one lane tunnel that had no lighting.
wonder what would i see in japan.

and the biggest story of this entry. about my journey home in 138.
ok, there was this two ah lians at the back of 138 cam whoring and all.
they were like dressed in skinny jeans, and tank tops.
revealing their tummy area at the front and back.
than there was this other girl, wore FBT shorts and a black tee shirt.
she sat on the seat opposite mine.
brought her knees up to the handle bar of the chair in front.
so she was like sand wiched between her seat and the one in front.
in front of me, after i decided to sit, was this old man.
i was on the phone chatting with a friend. than i realised something.
just happened to look at his phone when i thought to myself,
why is his wall paper moving all the time?
at that time, like almost every one was getting off the bus,
save him the 3 girls and another guy at the front of the bus.
the old man was seated just behind the back door, me behind him.
FBT shorts girl on my right, and the 2 lians right at the back.
so yeah, after a while, i relised that it was on cam mode.
his phone was clam shell design kind.
so a group of girls were leaving and he raised his phone, than the guys got up too.
so his phone went down. i was like okae.....
then he shut his phone, like 2 mins later, he opened it again.
i was like woah when i saw the wall paper. it was this pretty babe la.
long straight hair, really pretty baby looking face. nothing wrong about that right ?
yeah, she had a bikini bra on thats all.
i was like ok, now i understand whats with the cam mode.
after a while, he decided to change wall paper.
by then i was looking at his hp all the time. not because of the picture.
was wondering if he would shoot the girl beside me, cause she had her eyes closed.
anyway, he entered the gallery mode, hell it was full of pictures.
pictures of girls dining at some kinda cafe, some quick blurred shots of dunno what.
and finally, he settled for a different version of that girl on his wall paper.
he just changed the wall paper, same girl, different pose.
i was -.-" and what the hell, this guy's pervertic la.
2 stops before mine, the ah lians got up. the first one went pass the old man.
his head turned and followed.
till and angle where the bar blocked his view of the girl's waist.
guess what he did, he sat out of his seat,
strained his neck just to get a look of the girl's back.
guess he wanna see whether she zhao geng, cause he's hp was on the ready.
her friend then went pass him, she slim la, nice body seriously oops.
and his head turned again. i was like what the HELL !>!?!?!
all the time leveled at their waist line la.
than i realised the other guy left by the front door.
so it was me, him and the girl with really nice legs.
i was like, should i tell her via typing the msg on my hp?
that she should like move to the front? cause my stop was coming up.
thought to myself then i was like, hack la, she might think i am trying to be funny.
so i left just like that ahha. wonder what happen to her.
saw the old man's face. he looked grouchy and all hahaha.
must be deprived of sex thats why he looks so grouchy. and his actions hahaha.

heart bled @12:44 AM

Monday, December 03, 2007

okie, i cant seem to upload any pictures.
those are not important so is quite ok. injured my neck again, 3rd time.
this round, its over the old one that hasn't yet healed. bad.
dun even know how i injured myself. its the left side of my neck.
gonna see the doc tomorrow. earlier is better. this is really sick.

hmmm, i found out that its actually quite ok. those stains on the inside of the bell.
compared it to my original bell. looked really closely at the original bell.
then i realised that it has those stains too. only that its not so obvious.
this one has lacquer on it i believe. there's this shine on the wood.
sometimes it looks like those kinda 3d hologram cards from some angle.
maybe thats why, its more obvious and it feels slightly rougher to the touch,
as compared to the other parts of the bell that
hasn't yet gotten into contact with water.
neck's killing me, shall end here.

heart bled @11:45 PM

Sunday, December 02, 2007

this is martin's Osaka. its one of the common oscar species.
its a carnivor by the way. the smaller one below, there are two of that.
its another kind of oscar, with nicer colouration. couldn't get a nice shot.
it would face the cam or dart away the moment the lights for the timer goes off.

the recently decommissioned bell hahahahhah.

i shot this randomly for the fun of it.

shot by vanessa on her hp.

heart bled @3:25 AM

Saturday, December 01, 2007

alrighty the new toy came today. express mail.
i didn't know that they would use that,
was expecting it would take another 1 week at least.
i would have missed it today actually. woke up late.
for some reasons, i just couldn't get out of bed.
anyway ya, was bathing when i heard the phone ring.
after a while, i realised it was someone at the door phone, cause the side gate opened.
by then, i was drying up, dressing and all.
and then, i started thinking, no one would visit us.
it has to be a delivery. cant be the mail, cause the fellow would just drop it in.
and we dont order delivery services for food. the more i thought of it.
the more i thought it was the new toy.
after a short while, martin came running up the stairs and into the room.
nah, i think this is your stuff. just come only. hahhaha.
i was like WAAAAHHHH so fast hahahaha.
and that was it, screwed my entire plan for the day.
took my wallet, watch, phone, the box, rushed off to band.
after 3 mins at the bus stop, got fed up, cab down to the cc haha.
it was then, that i realised i had forgotten to bring my shoe lace,
vivian's DVD, my clarinet swap and the CDs of yck's investiture.
i was like, what the hell. nvm, its ok, ITS OK.
so yup, had fun with it, gonna have more fun with it tomorrow.
hmmm, i realised somehting, when i tilted the angle of the clarinet.
the sound changed drastically as compared to the original toy ahaha.
share experiment some more. i know i sound less edgy on the higher notes too.

hmmm, gatherings are fun. they always are.
dinner after band practices, just eat at some kopitiam, chat after that.
thats also fun. really nice actually. we should have a woodwind BBQ session.
at someone's house or something where its free.
then the only cost would be the food and drinks.
and at least, there would be a chance of a stay over or super late into the night.
can chat, get to interact with each other more, know each other better.
like section bonding session in sec school hahaha.
anyway, if you know each other better,
you would be able to work with each other better, am i right to say?
for most cases, i think that should be a yes la hahah.

if its a bbq at my house, man, do it out at the grass area haha.
than the smoke wont get to the upper levels. and quite possibly,
into my neighbours' house. at least if we do it like out in the open field,
the smoke just goes straight up to nowhere. and its much cooler.
plus after that, heehehe, can just dumpthe charcoal there hahahahahh.
the ash would be good for the plants? haha i dunno.
maybe just set up the charcoal columns on the grass.
use bricks to create the sides to suspend the wire mesh.
than can set up the table outside too. just eat there and everything.
oh yeah, one of the family living a couple units down, does that once in a while.
family gathering thing. looks really fun.
they do it in the day though, snakes. cant see them at night.
but its ok, we have got the 30 watt spot light up there HAHAH.
and the BBQ pit, bbq snake anyone ? oh well, just day dreaming.

heart bled @11:11 PM

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

okie, maybe thursday would be shopping day haha.
i need a reed case. i have decided to replace mine.
should have done that quite some time back. the clip lock system is spoilt.
spoilt for quite some time, but i just didnt wanna change it.
in the end, one of my reeds had a chipped egde.
they can literally slide around when they are super dry.
its no longer securely held down. so yeah, gotta get it replaced.
since thursday we are going out to get their reeds. so why not.
a list of things that i wanna get over time would be:
-a music stand, my old one disappeared just like that nearly 2 years old only.
-size 3.5i zonda reeds. i am currently surviving on size 4 vandoren reeds.
-metronome. never self practiced with one. never had one.
of cause they are not all that important la.
its just an over time i'll get it kinda thing.
and when i have the spare cash too.
i am kinda tired. so i'll end here already. work tomorrow. gotta sleep.

heart bled @11:27 PM

found this on youtube, so i thought i would share it.
note his barrel and bell.

heart bled @2:28 AM

Monday, November 26, 2007

strange, leblanc no longer has the Concerto II or the Opus II on their website.
cant seem to find it on their website already.
its just the Noblet series. dont tell me they have stopped producing them haha.
its doesn't make sense to continue with them anyway right.
since they have introduced the backun designed clarinets.
Legacy, Symphonie and the Candenza.
the price of the Legacy is comparable to the Tosca,
if that web i found today is accurate.
Symphony's roughly like that of the RC to Prestige.
but yeah, maybe because its a new line already?
and maybe because it's better than the Concerto II and the Opus II
in terms of sales and quality?
anyway, they are using backun barrels and bells.
thats like big enough an attraction already hahaha. yummy.
frankly speaking,
i am really tempted to just head down to Accent Music one of these days.
just try one of the models. say the Symphonie hahaha.
i believe i'll get the chance soon.

had headache the whole day. even now its still pounding my head.
its like AHHHHRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH.
now listening to Dimitri's 5ht symphony 1st mvt.
my head has not exploded, surprisingly. maybe it will when the 4th mvt comes.
i quite love this song hahaha.
anyway, i am getting better. mornings are still horrible.
everything jammed in the pipes at night. so yeah. morning's are horrible.
still remember sunday la. my dear clarinetist pal.
she kept laughing at me during practice.
cause when ever i spoke to her, my voice would keep goinging off my usual pitch.
like just skip to a higher pitch. and she found that funny.
it was so irritating cause it was so uncomfortable and horrible.
but its ok i guess, at least i brought laughter to another person.
not that i like her or anything k, its just nice to see people smile.

hmmm, taking the exam. maybe. still considering it actually.
maybe not a giant jump straight up there. maybe gradually.
take the other exams first then that one.
who knows, it could come in really useful in the future.
and if i really work on it, it could even be a side income.
but yeah, its always good to have some form of cert for some thing
in this God damned country where toilet papers are freaking important.
still considering, pending, processing.

hmmm, i realy should make use of this time.
all this free time and a sudden surge in band activities.
swo, ssw and yck alumni band practices. thats like 3 days a week already.
back to my sec school practice frequency.
so, i can throw in the other days when i am not having anything on.
just practice my clarinet. method books, songs that we are gonna play.
that kinda thing. cause that was how i improved in sec school.
when the practice frequency went up, i started playing more,
and of cause, i would improve even if its a little at a time.
well, we got some really fun pieces coming up.
so i guess if i can still improve, it would be pretty helpful when we play those pieces.

heart bled @9:53 PM

Sunday, November 25, 2007

okie, second post for tonight.
listening to James Barnes 3rd symphony, 3rd mvt.
quite sad actually. some parts, you can actually feel the lost.
i personally find it tugging at me more when i am playing the
song instead of listening to it.
maybe because you give your all into it, you concentrate more.
but yeah, its really sad. to lose your child like that.
i find some parts quite chilling haha. like the one for the oboe and the orchestra bells.
like opening a door and stepping into a room thats really cold?
no one in it. a room devoid of joy. filled only with sorrow.
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it was pretty shocking. when i read that sentence.
i was quite taken aback actually. decided to let it go.
its understandable. when people are down, they usually dont respond so well.
grown used to that. different responses from different people.
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i just remembered something.
i think i was entering or exiting the room when i heard that.
then i remembered that we haven't yet got anything done.
its been 2 weeks already. its already the 25th. maybe another 2 weeks?
delays here and there bound are bound to happen. so maybe another 2 weeks grace.
though by then its really gonna be a rush rush job.
and haha, by then i would be too excited with something else.
hopefully its by then.
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i have gotten used to it. being without a gf.
and after thinking every now and then over the pass few weeks.
plenty of weeks actually. i have now reached a conclusion.
i'll just be like who i was in sec 1 and 2 regarding this matter haha.
i actually like being single now. its not the freedom part.
its just that i realised i can settle my other stuffs better now.
with a gf, i dunt have the discipline to attend to other more important matters.
now i can, and everything has been working out pretty fine so far.
i do have someone that i like. its a crush.
and of cause, having made up my mind regarding these matters.
i have decided to leave it this way, taking no actions.
okie thats it for the night.

heart bled @11:41 PM

okie, these are the pictures from wei ming.
xian was teaching me how to use the psp ahaha.
i was like wa, whats this, how to do this and that? was playing monster hunter.

looking @ this picture, i realise i am really skinny.

siannnnn....hahahahahs

band today was siong. played lotsa songs. new pieces.

i love Nut Cracker !!! played the 1st and the 2nd solo parts for two songs.

quite nice. quite tough ahahha. challenging.

its been a while since i got that familiar kick feeling hahaha.

which means if i can get this right, its a chance to improve.

brings back memories of sec school band days. algemix.

when it was ooo so tough !! ahahha. damn. love it.

really hope i can play for the concert that those pieces would be in.

hmmm, someone's pissing me.

and that someone picked the wrong time. pissed me off when i am ill.

really at the wrong time. but hell. it wont last long.

medicine's strong, hate the effect. makes me feel drained of all my energy.

took it before heading out this morning. during band i was like, errrr,

just felt bad. i wanna eat fish soup. aunt used to cook that for me.

either that or fish porridge whenever i fell ill, or had an operation.

she used to cook those dishes for me. and it tasted really good.

hahah, hope my future wife can do the same.

if, its not too late for God to send her a messenger.

angel to future wife :

God has a message for you, learn to cook fish soup/porridge.

it will be of great help to you in the future, its the way to your man's heart.

heeheehee. slap slap, stop dreaming !! ahhaha.

and yeah !! i finally got that song from the korean drama.

it turned out to be bach suite. courtesy of jocelyn, she sent it to me.

heard jia rong playing it on the piano today i think.

i was like, thats familiar. and they told me. so yeah ahah. now i got it.

the next one to get would be, Beethoven's Goldberg Variations.

weeeee !!! okie, shall end here. till tomorrow.

heart bled @10:43 PM

@ eugene's place, waiting got the others to arrive. this is him by the way.

wanted to try out something. foudn out something else instead.

a group of friends :)

Joshua & wei ming

the birthday boy, chanfai.

Meiyun, Chanfai and Mary.

birthday boy and Matthew. plus the two girls of cause.

it was actually intended for chanfai and faizal.

but faizal couldn't turn up last min, so....

hehehe, where the fun begins.

his face got cake smashed 2 twice actually.

he was pushed into the pool after this haha.

tonight was fun though i was tired. didnt touch a single drop of alcohol.

jia xian brought a bottle of absolute volka, preach.

plan was to throw chanfai into the pool. in the end, the planner himself,

eugene, got throw in. by chanfai and another guy.

chanfai's other friend and i then tried to push him in.

his friend went in and chanfai was still dry, he's pretty strong.

i was like, hmm, ok, brute force doesn't work.

eh chanfai, the pool's 2.2m. help them up leh. when he went to the pool side.

i gave him a push. he went in and was like, who pushed me ?

lost the recording for that. accidentally stopped it while we were pushing him around.

wanted to upload another recording.

dunked his face into a slice of his birthday cake. twice.

its too big, the file, so yeah. cant. so yeah. make do with the pictures. sorry.

arrrgggghhhhh. gotta wait quite a while more.

they emailed me for the model number and brand.

which also means, they have not got anything started.

and its a week end already. most likely they are on break.

according to a friend, its at least 2 weeks, for thats friend's items.

so arrrggghhhhh. just gotta wait. its gonna be pretty fast i guess.

shall try not to think about it. thats pretty easy.

i have got my books. oh yeah, talking about books.

bought "Halo, Contact Harvest". its longer than the other Halo books so far.

think i could use the time during the two weeks to complete it.

okie shall end here. not feeling very well. got hiccups.

heart bled @12:14 AM

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